Preparing and recovering from my hysterectomy that was in August has been a journey of patience in the physical, emotional, and spiritual realms. This decision was not made lightly but ultimately was needed to bring better health to treat my autoimmune fibrosis and endometriosis. After yearly laparoscopies and many medications it was time.
Physically I have healed slowly but steadily with some minor complications but clearly with God's hands upon me. My bladder was perforated during surgery but continues to heal well. I have bulging discs in my neck that have flared up, along with my other autoimmune joint issues, but I feel stronger each week. Please pray that God would help me sleep at night so that my energy can be restored! Pray also as I go back to work soon. The biggest blessing has been that all of the pathology from surgery came back showing no recurrence of the autoimmune fibrosis. It was all endometriosis which means the immunosuppression drugs are doing their job taking care of a scary disease! I have praised God from the depths of my heart more than I have in years!
My emotions and spiritual life are so connected and a journey it has been. God has surrounded me with loving people who take care of me, pray for me and offer great wisdom and teaching as I seek to heal and grow during this time. God has reminded me that in order to get something out of my mind, such as anxiety or fear, I must replace it with something. For me that has been the Word! Through memorizing his Word and time with him he continues to bless me with knowledge of his ways and character. He blows me away with how big he is and his masterful ways. In closing, let me express my gratitude to him for my road toward recovery...
Dearest Father,
How big you are! You are a lot bigger than I ever remember! You are sovereign and in control; orchestrating our lives, orchestrating your perfect plan, using all good and evil. You are gentle and humble in heart. Thank you for letting me come and rest in you. May I learn from you. May I be gentle and humble; may I let others come to me and be a source of your love. Thank you for your peace Father God. I surrender my fears to you. My wounds you have healed. I lean on your ways.
In love,
Yours
Journey Now ~AT
