Journeying for today means letting the Lord reign over my decisions, my attitude, my body. I cannot let my self-centered desires or sinful passions take lordship. Over and over along my journey I have had to learn not to deny or repress my feelings. I used to think I was dealing with my emotions surrounding my health by saying, "At least I am not dying... at least I don't have..." God finally showed me (or I finally listened) that I was using those statements as a way to repress or mask my anger and fears. God has blessed me over the years with the knowledge to not hide my feelings but to express them to him, to take them to the foot of the cross for healing. It is still a process but he faithfully leads me.
I believe I have been fully healed by my Father but becoming well is a process for me. I continue to cherish all of your prayers and know that the Father will continue to bring health to all parts of me. Every single day, I praise God for the gift he has given me to journey with hope through difficult physical battles. I pray that we would all continue to learn how to rely on the Holy Spirit- to be tuned into how we can journey for today. May we let God hammer away the parts of our hearts that have hardened and mend the corners of our hearts that are broken. Ever so gently or as hard as needed, as little or as often as needed.
It is not easy but this is how we can come to living in the fullness of joy God intends. We do not have to live just for tomorrow. Here's the challenge: don't mask symptoms of sin that block love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.
Now that is Living for TODAY. ~AT
Update: Today was my first consult at the Mayo Clinic. I will be having many tests over the next week. Please pray for safety during the tests and that the test results would bring new knowledge to guide the treatment of my autoimmune disease. With deep gratitude I covet your prayers and love, Anna
