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Throughout 2009 I have faced a series of events centered around the pain and consequences of various diseases and conditions. At times it seems so unreal and at other moments, the reality has been more real than I so wish.
My agenda has been altered despite my resistance to not let my circumstances weaken me even an ounce. I have been confronted once again by the reality that even with a strong heart, mind, and faith I cannot just ignore my body's signals. As I have faced the reality of being less productive, I have been saddened, mad, and struck with guilt. I have tried to maintain control by ignoring it--- by marching on- pretending it does not exist.
Today I received an intervening message that has renewed my perspective- enabled me to journey with joy and hope. I have again been blessed with the realization that I have been paralyzed with the desire to maintain control over my circumstances. The secret is to surrender- to yield and confess every area of our lives. As it says in Mark 8:35, "Whosoever will save his life shall lose it; but whosoever shall lose his life for my sake and the gospel's, the same shall save it."
At times God blesses me with the strength to have peace- to be content. Other times, I admittedly live in a state of trying to maintain control as the wind sweeps and the rain pours upon my heart and body. I feverishly pray for my hearts desire- for God to calm the storm. Today, God has lightened the cross I bear by revealing to me once again the secret to victory... surrender, yield, and confess.
Journey in His Victory
~AT
